i realized i wasn't made for these times.

recently i guess my view on you and your friends has changed. i used to think you led this wonderful life and were always doing these incredible 'indie' things and that what you have with your boyfriend was so pure and true... but after meeting you, i realize that you aren't any of those things. you're just.. ordinary, and not even necessarily someone that i should be so intrigued with becoming friends. i now see that this "love" you have with this guy is false and that you are only still with him because you fear change. furthermore, you aren't confident, you have low self-esteem and are often unsure of things. i'm disappointed in myself for thinking you different, its not your fault at all, i shouldn't have put you on such a pedestal. and your friends, they insincere and backstabbing, not loyal and appreciative, and i imagine you are the same..