well i am a bird and you are a fish, and we will fly and we will float..

its been a bit but that's okay, i've found that its useless to write about small things that happen everyday, and more importantly my immediate reaction to them; and that allowing myself to reflect upon certain situations and then write about it is best.

things with ally are wonderful.. she is really something special and every time we are together we just have fun, its very simple and i wouldn't have it any other way.

on the other hand, victoria and i barely speak anymore.. and its killing me. she is honestly a sister to me, and though i know she's been going through a TON (even more than usual), it still hurts not to speak to her.. i hope that soon things will change, and i have a feeling that they will for the better.

the other day i think i can say that i had a bit of an awakening. i was in mission mart buying suitcases (forty-nine cents a piece, hellz yeah), and i saw their prayer list.. it hit me hard because names of people i know were on there, including v's brother, and i guess i realized that i'm taking things for granted. i've been very good recently, and i think that the idea that life is supposed to be that way started to take over.. i've been praying recently, something that i hadn't done on a regular basis in months.

i was thinking the other day, and SO MUCH has changed from three months ago when i was with valerie, a world of change in fact. i talked to her sister today because its her birthday, and she wondered where i went and i really couldn't give a good answer. not to say that i'm not content with whats happened in the past three months, i suppose it just snuck up on me.