listen, listen patiently..

i talked to mike today, first time since the first of the month.. he told me to write you a letter. i was considering it and leaving it on your car while you were at work, but i think i'd rather just give it to you in person, that is, if i ever see you again..

SWAN is going pretty good, wrote a new song, and its not bad. whenever i play it though, i think of you, and i don't like that..

we haven't talked for a few days, that's intentional. i think i need to give you space, though it kills me not knowing how you are..

a lot of stuff has happened and gosh, i just want to tell you and you get a laugh, or get your opinion on it..

i am sorry.

i found my heart today, it wasn't where i had thought..

today, in the smallest amount of time that i've been awake, i did something that i told myself i would NEVER do.. i cheated on valerie gorham.. this is the worst decision of my life, and not only did i hurt myself, but i hurt the person i care most about.. i love valerie, i've only known her for a handful of months but she's changed my life and now she's gone.. i deserve whatever is coming for me and i know it won't be good..

i get by with you at my side..

its important to remember to be considerate, i've learned.

we are called to a higher standard.

its my duty to rise above hate and threats and all the stupidity that comes with irrationality. i am a thinker, and i have a conscience.

new crevices..

i don't have time.. but this weekend felt great.