Dungeons & Dragons

So I played DnD for the first time tonight and I loved it, it was an awesome. I've been listening to a lot harder music lately, well it hasn't been lately, but I guess I've been enjoying it more than indie or any other music.

I hate to sound cliche, but Underoath has become one of my favorite bands, ever since Warped I've been fascinated by them, even downloaded a few DVDs of theirs.

Hindenburg & Mathias

Call it a shame, call it a disaster, call it a falling out, whatever. We are done. My passion for the past ten months has come to a screeching halt. I am torn, I am lost, I am depressed. This is the song that doesn't end on a good note.

things to work on: I

By nature, I am not a kind person. I simply wasn't born with the inkling to be kind to people. I can be, anyone can, but I come off as an asshole, because I am one.

I guess for me the "if you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say it at all" rule is a rule for me to live by, but I don't. I really have never cared what people thought of me, and I am always the first to think before I speak. Unfortunately, I've been doing that more now than ever and its affecting my friendships. I've crossed the line of being critical or occasionally crossing the line to constantly adding in my two cents and never having a kind look on my face.

I am making an effort to stop, because if I don't then I won't. Sadly its not in me to grow to be a kind person so I am going to have to force it.

I did some thinking,

I did some thinking tonight about my life. Everything is running smoothly now, I am the closest I have ever been to God (not to say that I have stopped trying to become closer), these days I am holding the hand of a WONDERFUL gal, my friends are all getting along, and getting along with me. But I can't help but be scared, my junior year of high school is going to start in a matter of days. Its going to be such an experience, I guess I just want people to think differently of me and maybe listen to what I have to say, maybe notice when I pick out a nice outfit. Maybe thats not what I should want from Marion, but I do.