Wow

People really, really are starting to dislike me. I've got a problem with kindness, I can be a saint to a stranger, but to my closest and dearest friend I am a dick, and the worst part of it is I don't realize it, I've worn out my sorrys and my excuses, so I am going to have to make some drastic changes towards her and to others in general.

I deal with a set of shackles everyday of my life. Its called Racism. Thats all I'm gonna say about that.

I am going through a change, a change that is for the better, I am working really, really hard to become a young man of God. Its hard and my outward actions seem as though I'm straying away, but I promise to anyone who reads this, and more importantly to myself that I am working to feel His grace more and more each day.

I'm not perfect, I'm young, I'm brash and I do care what other people say and think about me. I am trying not to let that last one bring me down.