when will these barricades fall?

we all put up barricades, all form some superficial barricades for protection against the most gentle of things, and sometimes the most harmful of things too.  lately, i've been letting those barricades fall, being vulnerable, and though it may hurt at first, in the long run its making me a better person altogether.  hows your faith been lately?  mine has been compromised, and there is no denying that.  its starting to take its toll on me, hell, today even my spanish teacher noticed something was wrong, he said that i looked like i was at a funeral.  i'm not sad, not at all, i'm happy with the change that i'm going through; its just that i'm unfulfilled. i remember at the end of last school year, i felt a calling to a higher standard, but unfortunately, the summer came and i lost sight of that and ended up in a huge rut.  i'll keep praying to realize this calling, and who knows how long it will take to hear my answer, but i have the patience to wait.