..they say they like the way we feel when we get touched.

last night was amazing.

later on about this when i have a picture or two to show for it.

this place feels so surreal.. am I alive?

i'm working hard, and i love it.

..where is my limit

well i got to see all the day holiday tonight, and it was truly wonderful.. i missed those dudes a lot, and seeing them and their bright faces and seeing all the success that they have been having is awesome. i always somehow forget how good it feels to see them live, its a feeling like none other, and i will forever love them for that..

it was also very good to see michelle, i hadn't seen her since halloween, she is an instant mood lifter, and though i got home past midnight, it was a very good decision to attend.

is depression, or satan telling lies?

today i missed school again, and i went to see the nurse practitioner, not the doctor, and got a few things. the most painful was a shot, and the rest was some medicine and a shitty disclaimer about the dangers of being an asthmatic that smokes. it didn't phase me much, i don't want to quit.. but i DO need to cut down.

tomorrow i get to see all the day holiday yet again, its been quite some time.. and i miss those dudes, especially mark.

tulez and i really need to go visit everyone in cinci soon.

i've lost hope that we may find a calm..

so ally and i broke up, which was expected, and i think where we are now, which is coexisting as good friends is working out really well.

SWAN played their first show saturday, pretty much on a whim.. i met some sweet people there and i hope to play around there again. oh and, new song up.

i'm sick. every year i somehow contract an upper respiratory infection, and its going on now.. i hate being sick and missing school when i'm sick is even worse. not being able to breathe well at all is terrible and i just want this voodoo out of my body!


things change, people change, i guess i gotta take it in stride..