vast open skies could do no harm...

today, i asked valerie gorham to be my girlfriend.. and i couldn't be happier.

things just feel so calm and so okay when we are together, and to think this was all through a match make.. i'm ready for this commitment and for what this holds for me, at first i had my reservations about getting into a relationship my senior year, but with valerie, i feel its okay and i don't worry about the future, more importantly, i don't take the present for granted.

some people call me out about her and stuff, especially my close friends.. they say that i'm just dating her because she is there, but you know thats not true. i'm not that person anymore, this is what i've been looking for.. and i'm happy.

i'm actually.. happy.

how can you walk away? you shouldn't care what i say..

i'm becoming comfortable with the ideals of commitment and what responsibility comes with them.

this autumn weather is taking its effect on me.

i look at the horizon and wonder, "where is my limit?"

tonight we as hollow cities sang for the first time collectively, and it was incredible. at first i was bashful, but after a bit, i got used to it. i felt so connected with the music, we were all one, and as i looked out his garage i saw the sun setting all around me in the distance.. moments like these are why i play music.

also today, valerie met my grandmother, mother, brother, and aunt uncle and baby cousin, she had met my grandpa a few times before. i was very happy about this, i feel good about this girl, and she feels good about me.

is it right to leave?

i am sick and fucking tired of the twilight series being the choice reading selection by nearly every girl i know.

palm trees are my only company..

i love everyone that i was with tonight, even jasmine.

simple as that.

take all you can, they're clearing me out..

this weekend was wonderful, and a great way to end the nine weeks. friday i spent with valerie at her homecoming.. that girl REALLY means a lot to me, and i think that is pretty significant, however scared i may be.  after that, i went to biggens's bonfire.. too many people there, but it evened out and it was a fun night, ended up at bill's and i experienced Eye for an Eye, and both Thom Yorke and Bjork on Space Goast.  saturday was a pretty standard day, went home and then went to muncie with tulo to tyler's house.  fun time, but i had to split.. i feel bad that i didn't go to indy this weekend, but it just wasn't in the cards for me.  after that, i went to shelby harney's house for a get together. unfortunately we got cut short because of a very belligerent kid, and his mother's very empty threat.  ended up at biggs's again, slept for a LONG time.  then today i went to 1812 with biggs, nick, sergio, and josh feurstein.  i purchased glorious cigars, and realized just how creepy boy scout leaders were.

all in all, a good time.  i really am connecting with my classmates, and i love it.. its more than i could have ever asked for this senior year to bring me.

oh the clever words on pages spread..

well, tomorrow wraps up the first quarter of my senior year, and what a nine weeks it has been.  things this year have changed for me, i am accepted, and for the most part.. genuinely liked.  these days i walk the halls with a smile on my face and my head up as high as it can get with such a heavy back pack.  i'm having a blast in the school play, and i'm becoming close to people who i think have needed it from me and vice versa.  for the record, miranda fuchs is a wonderful girl, and though she may seemd a bit dense and silly at first, the kid has a good heart, and i'm glad that i get to spend time along side her in the play.  with only twenty seven weeks left of high school, i am excited to see whats to come.

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this is where i want to be..

its one month until history is made. on election day, wonderful things will be happening, and regardless who you're for, the most important thing you can do on november 4th, 2008, is vote.

you'll be free, child, once you have died..

this phone call means something.  this is what He has been planning for me.. i'd be a complete fool to ignore this.

don't we look great in father's beard?

i am truly and utterly fascinated by a girl by the name chloe shallenberger, born just a day after me.