..girl

You still leave me in a daze..



..I just gotta be careful.

mewithoutYou

You know, I always told myself that I'd never be one of those "mewithoutYou kids," you know, the kids that loved them and always talked about them and how amazing they were, and at first I actually didn't like mwY, but around the time of a breakup, I went out and randomly purchased their newest, Brother, Sister, and I just connected with it, with the music, with the words, with the inflections in Aaron's voice, everything. I love that album and it sparked enough interest in me to learn more about the guys themselves. I learned that they have a wonderful relationship with the Lord and a very unique and appealing outlook on Christianity. Tonight was indescribable, Aaron started the set with "well here goes nothin'" and they played one of the best performances I've ever seen from anyone. They had a seamless set which was great, and their stage prescence and just everything was perfect. mewithoutYou now means so much more to me than just another band, they are almost like a feeling, I felt so different being in that audience, it was like I was in a wave and the music moved me and completely surrounded me. It was extraordinary.

Jerk

I hate being a jerk to people, especially girls, and especially girls that I at one time shared something wonderful with. I could never stand for things to end badly, and its even worse when they involve matters of the heart. Well at least I thought I couldn't, it seems like a part of me likes ruining things, which is odd because I have a hard time letting go. I guess its good that things ended this way, with all ties severed, but the things I said were not good and I'd like to apologize for them. I hope in the future things don't turn out like this.

I'll be singing

I'll be singing of us
Long after you've forgotten my name,
I'll be singing of us,
Of times well spent,
Of memories long gone,
I'll be singing of us.

Girl

I don't know if anyone even reads this, let alone her. Everyone, thank the Lord for who you have, if you are blessed with someone who likes you and begins to care for it, appreciate it, be happy with it, don't worry about it. Its hard, and sadly I have failed at my own words.

I complicate things, I am a simple young man, but I worry, unfortunately my actions have gotten the best of me. I feel alone, and its all my fault.



I'm sorry.

Summer.

One day. Just one.


Things with her are looking up, I have to be cautious, and my trust for her is little, but she is worth it.

Girl.

Your fault, you lied.

My fault









I let you.

Girl.

You told me that you would never hurt me. Did you lie?

Religion

"Thank the Lord that love is work."

I love God. As the school year ends I can't help but reflect. So many good things have happened this year, and all because of Him. He is truly great. Recently, I was blessed with a wonderful girl, and everything was amazing, honestly I was on top of the world every time I was with her. Unfortunately, we have hit a rough spot concerning trust and getting hurt. I know I won't hurt her, and I know I'm a good guy, but I feel that the Lord has a different plan for me than to be with her. I really don't know what to do. I know that everything He does is right and just, but I don't want to lose her.

I will pray about this, I just hope things work out for the best.