anchors away..

You say you're looking for a sign, but, baby, all you'll see is time fly by. All the wasted moments we have missed can be summed up with just one kiss, if you'd only let me in. I'm all wrapped up in clocks and maps. Time and distance: when you'll stop and where I'm at. I've been chasing you for way too long. Though my legs are weary, my heart is strong. And I don't think that you'll be gone long. That hole in your heart is getting harder to ignore. Do you think that the western states will have what you're looking for? I'm getting close. Anchors aweigh! But my broken heart won't convince you to stay. I will bury it deep inside my chest with all the things I never said and watch you walk away. That hole in your heart is getting harder to ignore. Do you think that the eastern states will have what you're looking for? Anchors aweigh! I'm begging you to stay anchors away. 

thank godddd.

breaking the habit tonight..

you're right, it is easy to fall into old patterns, but its even easier to forget the wrong that the person has done to you.

you KNOW she is no good, you KNOW she will treat you wrong, and you KNOW she lies to you.

stop being like me, and continue having sense.

i've got nothing to hide..

so why do you?

i simply don't understand why people hide things.  personally, not one bit of my life i keep a secret, there is no need to.. but i'm finding that even my closest friends are keeping things from me, and everyone else.  there is no need for it.. it really only causes rifts in a friendship.  ah well.

i'll drain these blue hands, to match my green face..

this ones about regret.

ever since i can remember, i always went by the motto "live your life with no regrets," and i did.  i feel that having regrets is dwelling on the past, and in order to live in a happy and doubtless present time, you have to capture the profound moment, and then move on from it. 

the singular thing that i regret is what happened with alissa.. part of its me being selfish, and well, a teenager.  she was the first girl i was with after helen, it just happened so fast, and i just felt shell-shocked after it.  also though, the fact that we can't be friends and that i am seen as a bad person by people gets to me the most. i'm not, i just made a mistake, and i know that there isn't anything i can do to change that opinion of me. 

this is all very random, but its something i had to get off my chest.

don't you remember?

i think this weekend has taught me a lot about tolerance.  i've spent the past six or so months being an asshole to everyone and getting annoyed by peoples' ways and all that, but then last night after about my sixth cheese fry from steak n shake, i came upon the realization that i should just be tolerant of others. and with that, i need to try not judge (everyone judges, though you say you don't or make an excuse for it, you do).  i guess i'm tired of having people mad at me, my mean demeanor has always been a joke, but this joke isn't funny anymore.

the drummer boy is drumming, and all you feel is fear..

tonight was a wonderful night, and i suppose in my bucket list, i complete one of the goals.  seeing prayer breakfast was absolutely incredible, their music just has a special place in my heart and seeing it performed by some of my favorite musicians topped off the cake.  now i'm in indy, like most weekends, and i love it.

oh dear, its been hardly three days and i'm longing to feel your embrace...

good feelings all around the room.

i'm happy, she is happy. this is exactly what i've been searching so hard for, and the best part is that i didn't search for her.